My Journey Towards Enlightenment

I was a Good Bible reading Christian. I prayed and studied the gospel etc. but did not find the peace I wanted. I carried on and on regardless though. I believed it was all part of God’s plan for me to keep looking, that it was His way to help me learn and mature.

Then I met someone and we clicked. She was a anti-theist/ atheist however – she denied god. But in spite of our religious differences we still got married (wow). I stupidly thought I would be able to convert her.

At the time I was working shifts and after a while she had an extra marital relationship. I could not look past it, so we divorced and as with most divorces, we ended up having a fight. One of the things she threw at me was my religion, so I promised to study it extensively and come back to her with the proof I need. Well, guess what happened…

scientific evidence for god

After reading several bibles in English and Afrikaans (my home language) and speaking to dozens of preachers, the only only answer I managed to walk way with was that there was no god. The more I searched the less I liked it. 

I still haven’t talked to my ex-wife or showed her my “proof”, as it turned out she was just a whore and a lying thief in any case (not the atheists’ fault). I have found peace and am happy to say I have no more guilt,  and don’t have to ask “please God” and say “sweet Jesus” anymore. Now I just get on with life and what ever happens happens. Since leaving my faith behind, life carried on and the mountains did not crumble or fall, my skin did not rot off. All was fine with the world. Same shit different day.

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